Thursday, June 5, 2008

Venting.

If there was one thing I could name that irritates me most besides being lied to, I would have to say being underestimated. I have been underestimated for as longs as I can remember. I don't feel like anyone can honestly believe in me as much as I believe In myself. I've been through so much and people would be surprised if the knew what goes on in my mind. Telling you still wouldn't make you understand 100%. The only way someone could understand is if they actually have gone through the same thing. I've gotten so use to underestimation that I expect it from everyone I meet now. It hurts to know people put a limit on what they think you can do. And yeah most people will say "Well I'll just prove them all wrong". But the truth is it gets tiring and quite nerve racking. Especially when it turns out I usually know what I'm talking about, yet I get no sort of credit. It goes right back out their head and it's back to the same ol' crap. I am struggling to find the person I once was. Hidden within the very depths of my soul. Too insecure to come back out, to shine, to be heard. I've become someone I don't know anymore. I've let it get to me so much that I've started underestimating myself. All the god given talents I was born with, I second guess myself, I give up easily. I'm afraid to even take risks anymore. I don't trust in myself and it hurts to know it's so hard to stop. I feel lost in myself. My mind is full of anxiety and stress. It's like a hopeless feeling. That's how i feel right now, like i don't know. I getting hungry I'll write more later.
To be continued.....

Monday, June 2, 2008

Yves Saint Laurent (1936-2008)

YVES Saint Laurent, one of the top French designers of the 20th century, has died in Paris aged 71--- from The Globe and Mail ----
Legendary designer Yves Saint Laurent dies at 71

ELAINE GANLEY

Associated Press

June 2, 2008 at 4:50 AM EDT
PARIS — Yves Saint Laurent, one of the most influential and enduring designers of the 20th century, will be remembered for empowering women through his fashion, a long-time friend and associate said. Saint Laurent died Sunday at his Paris home after a yearlong battle with brain cancer, said Pierre Berge, Saint Laurent's business partner for four decades. He was 71. "Chanel gave women freedom" and Saint Laurent "gave them power," Berge said on France-Info radio. Saint Laurent was a "true creator," going beyond the aesthetic to make a social statement, Berge said. "In this sense he was a libertarian, an anarchist and he threw bombs at the legs of society. That's how he transformed society and that's how he transformed women."
In his own words, Saint Laurent once said he felt "fashion was not only supposed to make women beautiful, but to reassure them, to give them confidence, to allow them to come to terms with themselves." Saint Laurent was widely considered the last of a generation that included Christian Dior and Coco Chanel and made Paris the fashion capital of the world, with the Rive Gauche, or Left Bank, as its elegant headquarters. From the first YSL tuxedo and his trim pantsuits to see-through blouses, safari jackets and glamorous gowns, Saint Laurent created instant classics that remain stylish decades later. Designer Tomy Hilfiger said he was saddened by the loss of such a legendary talent. "He was a creative genius who changed the world of fashion forever," Hilfiger said in an e-mail to The Associated Press. France's Prime Minister Francois Fillon said Saint Laurent was a pioneer and a visionary who "contributed to France's influence" in the world. "Mr. Saint Laurent revolutionized modern fashion with his understanding of youth, sophistication and relevance. His legacy will always be remembered," said Calvin Klein designer Francisco Costa. Saint Laurent was born Aug. 1, 1936, in Oran, Algeria, where his father worked as a shipping executive. He first emerged as a promising designer at the age of 17, winning first prize in a contest sponsored by the International Wool Secretariat for a cocktail dress design. A year later in 1954, he enrolled at the Chambre Syndicale school of haute couture, but student life lasted only three months. He was introduced to Christian Dior, then regarded as the greatest creator of his day, and Dior was so impressed with Saint Laurent's talent that he hired him on the spot. When Dior died suddenly in 1957, Saint Laurent was named head of the House of Dior at the age of 21. He opened his own haute couture fashion house with Berge in 1962. The pair later started a chain of Rive Gauche ready-to-wear boutiques. Saint Laurent's simple navy blue pea coat over white pants, which the designer first showed in 1962, was one of his hallmarks. His "smoking," or tuxedo jacket, of 1966 remade the tux as a high fashion statement for both sexes. It remained the designer's trademark item and was updated yearly until he retired. Also from the 60s came Beatnik chic — a black leather jacket and knit turtleneck with high boots — and sleek pantsuits that underlined Saint Laurent's statement on equality of the sexes. He showed that women could wear "men's clothes," which when tailored to the female form became an emblem of elegant femininity. Some of his revolutionary style was met with resistance. There are famous stories of women wearing Saint Laurent pantsuits who were turned away from hotels and restaurants in London and New York. Saint Laurent's rising star was eternalized in 1983, when the Metropolitan Museum of Art devoted a show to his work, the first ever to a living designer. He was awarded the Legion d'Honneur in 1985. But bouts of depression marked his career. Berge, who also was the designer's former romantic partner, was quoted as saying that Saint Laurent was born with a nervous breakdown. When Saint Laurent announced his retirement in 2002 at age 65 and the closure of the Paris-based haute couture house, it was mourned in the fashion world as the end of an era. His ready-to-wear label, Rive Gauche, which was sold to Gucci in 1999 for $70-million cash and royalties, still has boutiques around the world. Saint Laurent had long been rumoured to be ill, and Berge said on RTL radio Monday that he had been afflicted with brain cancer for the past year. "He no longer liked the world of today's fashion ... he said it didn't understand him," Berge said. After retirement, Saint Laurent spoke of his battles with depression, drugs and loneliness, though he gave no indication that those problems were directly tied to his decision to stop working. "I've known fear and terrible solitude," he said. "Tranquilizers and drugs, those phony friends. The prison of depression and hospitals. I've emerged from all this, dazzled but sober." A funeral ceremony was scheduled for Friday at the Saint Roch Church in Paris, Berge said. We are saddened by the passing of legendary designer Yves Saint Laurent but are comforted in knowing his visionary designs will continue to inspire and influence fashion for many years to come. In his honour, we present a selection of quotations and videos.
xo MySpace Fashion Yves Saint Laurent on Fashion:
"I have often said that I wish I had invented blue jeans: the most spectacular, the most practical, the most relaxed and nonchalant. They have expression, modesty, sex appeal, simplicity - all I hope for in my clothes."
"We must never confuse elegance with snobbery."
"To be beautiful, all a woman needs is a black pullover and a black skirt and to be arm in arm with a man she loves."

"Fashion isn't just to decorate women, but to reassure them, give them confidence."
"Is elegance not totally forgetting what one is wearing?"

"A woman who has not found her style, who does not feel at ease in her clothes, who does not live in harmony with them, is a sick woman."

"The silhouette counts more than anything. It should never be overloaded."

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

My Opinion.

Ok. One of my many myspace friends brought up a subject of being tired of people obsessing over trends that are no longer in style or that are over. HERE'S WHAT SHE SAID.......

Why do people CLING to old trends?

Get a clue and get over:-Hello Kitty-Gloomy Bear-Long poorly done extensions-Brass knuckles -Bats-Gore-Really poorly done trains run by not cute kids-Friend adders and things like Friendstorm-Contest sites-The following things in your name [massacre, gore, brutal, core, kannibal, hollywood, suicide, etc] unless you've had that name forever and you're WELL KNOWN because of it-Pictures with lollipops/balloons/fingers in the shape of peace signs/kissy lips [unless they're old pictures that you've had up for months]-Putting your friend count in your name-Names full of groups that no ones ever even heard of-OVER Photoshopping yourself-Bring Me The Horizon/Oli Sykes [not necessarily listening to them, but the obsession with them]-Bandannas around the neck/leg......
Ok I respect her opinion very much an understand where she's coming from, BUT.... I say to everyone; Be yourself. If you like something, it doesn't matter what anyone says. You don't have to follow trends and you don't have to stop liking something just because a majority of others did. When it comes to these names, bands, graphics, trains, whoring, whatever...... Do what you want with YOUR space. Get friends how YOU want to get friends, take and photoshop pictures how YOU want your pictures. It's that simple. I mean you have nothing to prove to anyone on myspace. People will talk, good or bad. No need to judge anyone because of what you may not like, especially something non-serious. You don't have to visit anyone's page if you don't want to. You don't have to look at someones graphics or whore or listen to the music others listen to. Hit the x and go about your day. Stop all the hate people. If people want to photoshop their pictures who's to say their doing it too much? Is it your pictures? Do you know them personally? Does their decision hurt you physically in any way? What do you think photoshop is for? Everyone is not alike, if that were the case everyone would be clones,lol. Be yourself. Like what you like, be who you are, have fun and keep it moving. Everyone has copied off of someone at least once in their life, realistically everyone has things about themselves that some people might not like. But it only matters if you make it matter. So to everyone do you and do it well! And as long as you like it, it's all that matters:)

Saturday, March 1, 2008

-- We Are The Ones --




The We Are The Ones Song by will.i.ampeople say Obama's words are just words...but...when was the last time "words" weren't important...???...when was the last time a great leader didn't use words to lead...??...when was the last time a person didn't use words to describe how they felt...?...when was the last time "words" weren't empowering...?...and we can all recall the last time "words" were used to divide us and install fear...Bush used words to fear us into voting for him the second time around...terror this...terror that...nuclear here...weapons of mass destruction there...and those words effected a lot of people's choices..."enough is enough"...let's rebuild...let's change ourselves...let's allow positivity to guide us...let's take action....let's activate our passion...we are Americans....and this is the first time in forever that someone running for president represents "US"...some say this is all excitement...I call it "proud to be an American"...some say this whole Obama movement is "cult like"...well...if it comes across cult like...then...the cult is called America...the Obama movement is connecting America.and it has made "US" realize our importance...the youth is excited and activated...adults are passionate and motivated...the elderly are proud to know the country they built is in safe hands...we are one...for too long politics has been corrupt...separate from the American people...with agendas that go against what the American people "need"...education...health...safety...jobsetc...politicians have spoken a different language...making it so the youth and poor people feel as if voting was only for the wealthy and old people...making "US" feel as if "we" had no voice...making "US" feel powerless...making it feel like if "we" did vote it wouldn't change anything...but wait...that did happen...some of us voted, and it didn't change anything...we were in the dark...we had no voice...we were powerless...because America was not a united America...and "they" spoke a different language... and they had an agenda different from our well being... correct me if I'm wrong... or speak up if I'm missing something... we want education, health, safety, and good jobs...right???... oh yeah...and "a healthy planet to live on"...but here we are...in a war... poor education... poor health programs... the dollar is down... the planet, polluted...the rich, richer... and the poor, struggling...with sky high gas prices to top it all off...and now even the rich aren't really rich internationally because our dollar is has fallen so far down...in our slumber... a very small few got really rich...because when you're sleeping..."it's hard to change agendas"...we know what happened in 2000 and 2004...but in 2008...it's different...we are awake...and there is a movement...and "it's hard to change a movement"...last time "we" didn't have a movement...America wasn't united...and now "United and "Standing"...for something...we know the power of "US"...and we have a person who represents the "U.S."..."US"…"we are the ones we've been waiting for"...I'm proud to be an American...will.i.am

Friday, February 29, 2008

Yes We Can

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The Yes We Can Song by will.i.am

I was sitting in my recording studio watching the debates...Torn between the candidates. I was never really big on politics...and actually I'm still not big on politics...but 4 years ago, me and the black eyed peas supported Kerry...And we supported Kerry with all our might...We performed and performed and performed for the DNC...doing all we could do to get the youth involved...The outcome of the last 2 elections has saddened me...on how unfair, backwards, upside down, unbalanced, untruthful,corrupt, and just simply, how wrong the world and "politics" are...So this year i wanted to get involved and do all i could early...And i found myself torn...because this time it's not that simple...our choices aren't as clear as the last elections ...last time it was so obvious...Bush and warvsno Bush and no war...But this time it's not that simple...and there are a lot of people that are torn just like i am...So for awhile I put it off and i was going to wait until it was decided for me...And then came New Hampshire...And i was captivated...Inspired...I reflected on my life...and the blessings I have...and the people who fought for me to have these rights and blessings...and I'm not talking about a "black thing"I'm talking about a "human thing" me as a "person"an American...That speech made me think of Martin Luther King...Kennedy...and Lincoln...and all the others that have fought for what we have today...what America is "supposed" to be...freedom...equality...and truth...and thats not what we have today...we think we are free...but in reality terror and fear controls our decisions...this is not the America that our pioneers and leaders fought anddied for...and then there was New Hampshireit was that speech...like many great speeches...that one moved me...because words and ideas are powerful...It made me think...and realize that today we have "very few" leaders...maybe none...but that speech...it inspired me...it inspired me to look inside myself and outwards towards the world...it inspired me to want to change myself to better the world...and take a "leap" towards change...and hope that others become inspired to do the same...change themselves..change their greed...change their fears...and if we "change that""then hey"..we got something right...???...1 week later after the speech settled in me...I began making this song...I came up with the idea to turn his speech into a song...because that speech effected and touched my inner core like nothing in a very long time...it spoke to me...because words and ideas are powerful...I just wanted to add a melody to those words...I wanted the inspiration that was bubbling inside me to take over...so i let it..I wasn't afraid to stand for something...to stand for "change"...I wasn't afraid of "fear"...it was pure inspiration...so I called my friends...and they called their friends...in a matter of 2 days...We made the song and video...Usually this process would take months...a bunch of record company people figuring out strategies and release dates...interviews...all that stuff...but this time i took it in my own hands...so i called my friends sarah pantera, mike jurkovac, fred goldring, and jesse dylan to help make it happen...and they called their friends..and we did it together in 48 hours...and instead of putting it in the hands of profit we put it in the hands of inspiration...then we put it on the net for the world to feel...When you are truly inspired..magic happens...incredible things happen...love happens..(and with that combination)"love, and inspiration"change happens..."change for the better"Inspiration breeds change..."Positive change"...no one on this planet is truly experienced to handle the obstacles we face today...Terror, fear, lies, agendas, politics, money, all the above...It's all scary...Martin Luther King didn't have experience to lead...Kennedy didn't have experience to lead...Susan B. Anthony...Nelson Mandela...Rosa Parks...Gandhi...Anne Frank...and everyone else who has had a hand in molding the freedoms we have and take for granted today...no one truly has experience to deal with the world today...they just need "desire, strength, courage ability, and passion" to change...and to stand for something even when people say it's not possible...America would not be here "today" if we didn't stand and fight forchange "yesterday"...Everything we have as a "people" is because of the "people" who fought forchange...and whoever is the President has to realize we have a lot of changing to doI'm not trying to convince people to see things how i do...I produced this song to share my new found inspiration and how I've been moved...I hope this song will make you feel...love...and think...and be inspired just like the speech inspired me...that's all...Let's all come together like America is supposed to...Like Japan did after Hiroshima...that was less than 65 years ago...and look at Japan now...they did it together...they did it..."We can't?...Are you serious..?..WE CAN!!!Yes we can...A United "America"Democrats, Republicans and Independents together...Building a new AmericaWe can do it..."TOGETHER"Please visit www.yeswecansong.comThank you for reading and listening...will.i.am

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Heath Ledger ( April-4th-1979 - Janurary-22nd-2008 )


I Simply Can't Believe it! You were an wonderful actor. And will be truly missed:(



Probably one of the most influential actors of the 21st century died today January 22nd 2008 3:26pm EST and it was possibly one of the saddest days of my life (exaggeration, although i did cry). However, I'm thankful in some ways because he's an excellent example of someone who knew what they wanted to do with their life. This has influenced me so much and I from now on am going to set my heart on doing all that I possibly can to achieve my dreams and goals. I am going to do everything I can to live my life to the fullest. Who knows if Heath did the same but he was a brilliant actor and i have full respect for him.As for the Heath's family; They unfortunately found out about his death through a radio broadcast.Today was very difficult for many people. I couldn't stop thinking about everything he has gone through as an actor. Life can end so abruptly. He was truly a wonderful actor, and from what I've seen...an all around beautiful person. This may seem like a load of babble but im just speaking exactly whats in my mind at the moment. Something I'll miss most...That heart warming smile of yours:( I'm happy to have been able to see your work. You were amazing.Rest In Peace Heath.
-Cori




Thursday, January 17, 2008

(People Are Such Hypocrites)

The World is getting worse everyday. I shake my head in disgust at the hurtful and demeaning things people say about one another. Allot of people today are blind. Blinded by Anger, Hate, Envy and Stupidity. It amazes me that people like you actually even feel like you should spit out the ridiculous crap that comes out of your mouth. Why is it the people think they have the right to judge one another? What makes you better than anyone else? People seem to forget that no one in this god forsaken world is perfect. Everyone seems to forget that constantly bickering about someone Else's life doesn't make them right, or justified just because it's something they say they wouldn't do. We all have free will. You have the right to choose, and every decision you make will affect you in your future. Everyone makes mistakes. Please believe it. Yes even you assholes who constantly talk down on people who go through their mistakes publicly. Like Britney Spears for example. Please explain to me what gives people the right to say such horrible things and not give a fuck about a fellow human being going through the troubles we all must face in life. No one will be protected from the pain or problems life brings. Everyone is different, everyone doesn't make the same decisions. Though she may make allot of mistakes it doesn't give anyone the right to wish death upon her, or the right to judge her.Or for that matter anyone. If anything she needs help, and allot more privacy. No one except her can know how it's like to be constantly followed and judged by every decision you make. & What's funny is that people don't even know her and think they do just from videos, interviews & concerts? Are your serious?? lol. It's so ludicrous it doesn't make much sense to me. No one deserves so much hate. If she was just some girl in Texas and had no fame, I wonder how people would react to her mistakes. Why is it that people love to see others fail. They get a kick out of it. When if it were the other way around, and believe me every ones did something they're not proud of. How would you feel? Then your the victim right? People think! Stop judging, stop talking so much shit and please get a life of your own. If you don't like a person fine, but make sure your reason makes more sense than your make believe version of how you think someone is. So Christians who speak hate and threats against others for any reason aren't Christians.Christian means Christ Like<<-- So get it right. People who just don't have lives so they have to tell others how to live theirs...Please go tape your mouth shut and save everyone the grief. People who try to fight and argue over myspace, people who love drama so they bring it into everyone Else's lives, hypocrites, and just plain ignorant people who say their a fan one minute and talk shit in the same breathe. Stop idolizing people, stop expecting people to be perfect, stop judging people when u realize they're not .Try helping people for once. And worry about important things like where your life is going. If all you can do is hurt others...stay out the way.Your no better than anyone else. Open your eyes and realize it. Your not perfect! Neither am I. So those without sins, without mistakes, without troubles...cast the first stone. Hatred is not the answer to change. And until people recognize that; this world will continue to go down the drain..............